Gentleness

Sometimes all we need is gentleness.

A kind word.

A true smile.

A touch or an arm to hold you.

A sign that lets you know that you have been heard and understood.

It is not a great undertaking or a large demand.

Something so simple, tender, kind.

Gentleness.

Life life LIFE!

Life is a like a complicated jigsaw with lots of blue sky.

Finally pieces start connecting and everything becomes complete and whole.

This is me. The past month I have gained so much knowledge and wisdom that it's postively bursting out of my ears!

Everything feels right and every day I'm taking bits of the wisdom and applying it to my life. I'm tired, that is granted. And sometimes I wonder how much simpler my life would be without all this wonderment going on in my head.


Simpler yes, But less colourful, less feeling? I want a life filled with love, understanding and abundance and vitality.


This is my path.....and I have no intention of abandoning it.....
xxx

Stepping back...

The last couple of weeks have been topsy turvy in terms of emotions this week.


The skies have been grey, the ground damp. I have been unable to get out and get my daily dose of Vitamin D nor able to do much in way of tending to my veg and flowers which, on a positive note,  have been thriving with the rain.


I have been awaiting books to arrive from amazon, and after almost losing patience, they arrived! Great Stuff. And so far, awesome, inspiring stuff.


Yesterday I got to listen to Andy Baggott, author of 13 books, his current being Blissology, the art of happiness. Andy was the guest speaker at a local monthly series of talks. His words inspired me a great deal and made me realise just how much any negative thinking or speaking can affect my own and other people's lives. Be careful for what you wish for and all that!


My new aim is to do what feels right, good and fun. Step away from the people and environments that make you feel negative in any way. Today I shall be 'setting' my day and wishing and imagining a great, joyous day ahead of me......


Try it!

Enjoy your own company

I've watched this a dozen times or more, but it still inspires me and it is on my favourites list on youtube.


I love being alone, I'm not afraid of my own company. Alone with my thoughts. Me, myself and the elements.


Take time out, sit and let your mind wander. Or clear your mind and just be. Sit in the garden and feel the breeze, listen to the birdsong, grab a cuppa and do a crossword or read a book that makes you feel good. Go for a long walk just with yourself and notice things you don't take the time to look at when in company.


Write a journal, doodle in it, write down your thoughts and desires, sketch and fill it with whatever you desire.


Enjoy being you. Love yourself.

Remember the 'remove negativity' lecture? Well, this is still ongoing, I'm saying no when I want to say no. I'm taking a step back from negative relationships and I've been giving myself a break. We all deserve time to sit, ponder, do what we want to do, free from guilt and nagging. It has been lovely.


I admit myself, I am a fair weather gardener without a doubt and the spell of good weather has seen me out in the garden planting, weeding, trimming, really feeling the earth beneath my fingers - as well as meditating and reading out there. To say it has been good for the soul would be an understatement. I feel ALIVE. I feel grounded. Settled. I can't promise this is a forever feeling. But I'm being present in this moment and I'm appreciating every second of this goodness in my life.


Today I came across a young fledgling blackbird sitting on my driveway with an obvious injury to it's leg. I sat with it and talked to it very gently until it calmed down. The Blackbird had striking blue eyes which really looked at me. This bird was really checking me out. I felt a deep connection there I wish I could describe. With some assistance, I got Blackbird into a ventilated box and took her to the veterinary. Blackbird, with some effort, shifted around to look at me before I left the building. I was sincerely moved by this bird and sitting here typing this entry, I feel a weight in my heart and tears welling in my eyes. I am now awaiting it's outcome. I will find out in the morning when I ring. I really hope for it's survival. 


I'm feeling more and more connected to the earth and it's inhabitants by the day. I'm feeling confident that this bird was meant to be there at the moment, for me to gain it's trust and feel this new connection. 


Beautiful.

Tree Hugging

As I'm writing this, I'm looking out of the french doors at the sunshine pouring onto my garden making it look green and vibrant. Absolutely beautiful. What crazy weather we are having! I spent yesterday morning shivering around the house and then the afternoon pondering at the hail and thunder, mad?


This weekend was about the same, crazy weather. Though we made the most of the sun when it decided to come out of it's hiding place. 


We visited Erlestoke woods, the bluebells were just about done but I was pleased to catch them in their splendour. The boys (minus one teenager who jaunted to Bath with mates) happily ran about and found gun shaped sticks and powwed each other with them, stuck cleaver plants to my back and collected pine cones in their pockets.

I hugged a few trees!

We finished the morning off with lunch at a local cafe and a cake from the bakers. A lovely end to a free morning's entertainment, who needs to pay to keep the kids happy?

Sunday was MY day, I set off early equipped with change and lots of spare bags and ventured to the local bootys and then went further afield to Yeovil where I bumped into lovely Sophie from Fading Grace. I came back with lots, including baskets, ceramics, fabric, tins...and more! 

Happy lady!

Have a great week everyone xxx

New way of thinking

There comes a point in most people's lives when they realise a change is needed, it might be a change in living circumstances, a change in career, a change in diet or a change in the way of thinking.


I find myself, at the grand old age of 33 years young at a point in my life where I need to change my way of thinking. This kind of change is not easy - 33 years of influence and life experience has brought me to where I am now and to my way of thinking. And where I am now brings me to the point of wanting to change.


I've suddenly become very aware of my need to be liked, approved of, and that in turn was making me ill. Have you tried to be a person that "everyone" liked and approved of? Such a person does not exist - everyone is different and sees things in others that other people do not, we are all brought up with different values, morals and outlook. How can one person cover all that in every person? You cannot.


Henceforth, I was an extreme "yes" person, aiming to please everyone but myself. And I became mentally exhausted, anxious and poorly.


I've become very self aware these last few weeks. Aware of my needs, mentally and physically. And this is where the change begins. Do you find yourself recognising yourself in my description above? Maybe you owe it to yourself to start being gentle on your being, to realise that you will not be everyone's cup of tea and by distancing yourself from people who make you anxious, unhappy and under confident you will be doing yourself a favour. You should not need to physically try and get on with someone. It's supposed to come naturally. If it doesn't. Don't judge and blame yourself.


Surround yourself with people you love, admire and respect, people who inspire you and love you whatever you do, are seen to be wearing, however you think.


Stop being a "yes" person, think about yourself. Do you really want to do this? Does it make you happy?


This weekend I took myself off to a local fayre, on my own, and wandered around, no rushing and thinking about others. I sat and watched the world go by, and then drove home feeling ridiculously content with the car windows down, singing to the radio with a smile in my heart.


When was the last time you did something purely for you?


Think about it xxxxx